Another Fucking entry
It has been a while since my last entry. And quite frankly they get sloppy every time. Geez what has become of this world in the past months. THe world I used to live in is no more. The people I used to know and hold on to are gone. The person whom I always felt happy with ran away and tried to come back. But sadly, things can't go back to the way they used to be. How I wish that this things would just pass away. Well wishing is for the hopless so fuck those problems. They fuck with me so I fuck back.
Amazingly, 3 years ago, I didn't see myself using the words fuck, shit and all those words that fall in that category in anyway. But hell, they grew into me. So I love using them. Heck who's gonna stop me from using them. I could spend a lot of time using those words. And I'll love every moment of it.
So anyway. A friend had this shirt that says "if life gives you bull... grab it by the horns." True, you should grab it by the horns. And show that bull how stupid is he to charge at you. Life together with the world is a mean bitch who fucks hard. So when she does there is nothing else to do but to fuck back harder. Good people should stop being good because they get stepped over by other people. Who needs to be kind and ggod when you are treated otherwise. These people should stop taking shit from anyone and demand what they want. Grab it and force anyone into submission to attain it. The hell with a passive lifestyle. Yes it is a nice way of living but that is just a euthopian idea of living. You can't attain anything by being good and being passive. We should take the initiative and attack. Be mean, be ruthless, be the master the master of your life. I assure you that, if you do take what you want by force, you will never ever attain happiness in your life. Because you don't even know what you truly need in the first place.
To all of the people who gave me shit this is for you "
SHIT HEADS".... except to you ms ..."
RANG" you are forgiven from all the things you wish to be forgiven. You don't have to repay me back for all the things and favors I have done for you. I did them because I wanted to. Just LIVE A HAPPY AND WELL LIVED LIFE and that would be enough to repay me if you ever wish to.
The Ice man
Last Sunday's race showed the transition of a driver from a mere driver to a legend. The place was Monza Italy, the home track of the Ferrari's. The wheather was good and the race was intense and a truly great driver has just proven his greatness.
During the closing laps of the race. Kimi, the top Mclaren driver, showed a spectacular show of his skill and of his car's capability. He had done what seemed to be a winning run through the final stages until he lost it all in one turn. But this mere set back would cause him the championship but also placed him on top of all the drivers in that race. Close to become a legend.
He defied the impossible. He came from eleventh and alomost won it. He showed the world that he has the skill and the killer instinct that is need to be a world champion. Sadly he fell short.
If at the end of this season he looses to the current championship leader Alonso, the season not end in shame. His spectacular performance thus far has given fans all over the world to look forward with enthusiasm for next years season.
To the great Kimi.... There's still hope and as always, there's next year. Best of luck to you.
Morning rush
In the early morning I attempted to rush from my place to my school for me to take a very important exam of a subject to which I am barely passing. Instinctively I took the jeep, figuring it would be more beneficial for me in terms of money and time. Sad to say I only the part about money was true. I spent almost 30 minutes waiting for one jeep. To make matters worst the roads were so congested that it took 5 minutes to progress 10 inches. Damn the Manila traffic.
The long wait and traffic made me angry and frustrated. I kept telling myself that the bus drivers, jeep drivers, and other drivers were too stupid to stop in the middle of the road while the go signal is on. Where is the discipline and emphathy of these people. After a few minutes of this frustration, I ended up realizing that I was being to hypocritical about it. Hey if I was a driver I would probably do the same thing regardless of who are the cars behind me.
Eventually and hopefully, the same drivers who pissed me off will be pissed off when I become a motorist onself. As he said "Bawian lang yan" --some great dude---
Another Entry Again
Backtracking to two of my previous entries I have learned that I have totally lost myself during the past days prior to this date. I have been living like a shadow to my former self and have no sense of accomplishing what is needed to be done for the good of all. This has lead myself and several other people to a very obscure situation.
I have to stand up now and let my heart and soul free from the restrictions of my concious self.
To be free and to reach out and achieve something in life, this I have to do and accomplish before I go.
Another entry
When at first we are sure that the outcome of a moment, a trial, and a test character shall not be how we want it to be.Rather it would be harsh and mind numbing ,do we still go for it or stop and let it go?
Faced with this dilemna I chose to go for it and I expected the end result would only get me pinned down and broken..... shattered in a million pieces and feeling so worst so bad and so down like a plane. A plane brought down by AA guns or a bird breaking its wings in mid flight, slowly plummiting down to the earth and smack........ life ends.
No life has not ended but left broken and tormented by the pain the crash has inflicted.
This can summarize the usual scenarios, experiences and trouble that people, who seek my help, tell me. Conveniently they are quite relevant and in line to what I chose to face which was the one thing I have been running from ever since.
I am tired of running so I chose to stop and face it. I knew for sure that it would beat me up bloody and naked but It had to be done.
And I did.
To those who were there to help me face it, I say my heartful and most sincere thanks to you.
To the wonderful friend who was there with me from the start...
I owe you a lot. You have kept my head up while I was drowning in my battle. You have guided me and enlighthened me to pursue a better life. You kept me from harming myself and led me to grow up. If you need anything just ask me.
To my fear....
You have showed me a life I have never taken... a life that I would die for to keep. A life that is worth living and treasuring. A life quite better than what I had before.
You know the story behind it and everything in it was and is always true...... I fully understand what you have said. Yet taking it, even though I was expecting it from the start, will be hard for me. I do understand your point and I will keep my part of your request.
Thanks for being honest and true.
And that is the only thing that I want you to do, to be honest and true.
Something to fill the space
I am an avid fan of motorsport especially the WRC and Formula one franchises. It is quite amazing how these two sport franchises with the magic of television make a regular race a great spectacle to watch. But recently, these two have lost the old luster that they had during the late 1990's and early 2000's. They just don't seem to be quite amusing now than before. Too much technology has made the races quite predictable and uninteresting at some points. But hey, Loeb still will be this year's champ.
Seeking new alternatives to the previously stated franchises has brought me to discover an old sport that delivers a greater excitement than the two. It may not be as fast as F1 and WRC but it surely brings a lot of thrills to the viewers.
And this alternative is the Tour de France.
The spikes have got me.
The red spikes in me have already won.
This hasn't been the first time I faced them.I have been here countless of times and on each occasion I have come out victorious against them.
Sadly on each time we meet he constantly gets stronger and stronger. Too strong now.
His blood now flows within me.
I am filled with anger, confusion, hatred and ressentment against the people I love and care. And each time I try to remove it out of my system I end up doing more harm than good. My good side now is
dying. Day by day it now vanishes replaced by the person who has the power to destroy, to hurt and to ruin everything that is good and wonderful in this life. With the remaining goodness within me I'll try to hold him as much as I can.
To those who may get involved -----------------
I am sorry, it is beyond my control now.
My answer to your question that day.
Yes I am! But I can't hold it against you. Forgive me for being so.
Venting Steam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That kind of attitude makes me mad. So mad I hate to do a project again!!!!!!
